What is all this NOTHINGNESS about? Have you ever had the feeling of being completely without knowing? Knowing if you are going to have work, food, home or love in your life. Finding yourself putting out much effort day after day, after day…and then NOTHING! Planning, strategizing and even following inner directions and intuitive feelings…just to come up with NOTHING!! Nothing yet, I keep saying to myself. My usually very strong Will is coming up empty handed. My tenacious spirit…yielding NOTHING! There is this crazy buzzing in my heart of plain NO-THINGNESS! There is all of me wanting to be met somewhere, in some form of valued service and with some meaningful engagement by my life as it is right NOW. But, all that is meeting me is….NOTHINGNESS! NOTHING that is moving me outwards and forwards. Quite the contrary….this NOTHINGNESS is moving me backwards and inwards and it hurts. Because all that movement inwards has stirred up a full spectrum of emotional pain bodies that is demanding my absolute attention.
Really! Right now? You got to be kidding me? I am trying to make something happen here!
I am working my buttocks off to keep standing in what I believe I came here to do. Then this NOTHINGNESS comes upon me like a fears lioness protecting her cubs. Well, I am no dummy to the mystery of life arising as the vast unknown in my universe. It has happened before. Only this time it is strongly supported by every aspect of my life.
Not fair! Nowhere to hide. Nowhere to go and distract myself with all my wonderfully addictive behaviors…unattainable relationships, over work, over doingness, over consuming, over indulgence of food, isolation, unhealthy sleep/wake cycles, disconnecting with my feeling heart.
If this has ever happened to you, you must know how overwhelming this can be. You have very little energy and focus available for course redirection. But, this is where you need it the most! One thing that has always showed itself to be true in my life is “ if you are able to breathe then you can breathe your way through anything”. I really mean it! The body is always breathing. You are always breathing. But, the breathing I am talking about is Conscious heart breathing where you participate in your breath. The kind of breathing that is regulated by your larynx and governed by your heart. Not your nose. It is a deeper breathing that allows you to connect to every part of your body and invoke the heart of your soul.
Yes! It really works. For so many reasons I don’t have time to tell you here. Just try it for yourself. I know what you are thinking. “ Like breathing is going to pay my bills, make my boss nicer or fix my partner? “ NO! Of course not. But, it will reconnect you back to the reasons why you are worthy to have all that you are wanting to manifest in the first place. It will fill you up with the most authentic inspiration of self-hood and right actions that are for you, not against you.
OK, this is how I do it. Just 7 minutes a day (my favorite number and according to numerology it is also my “Destiny” number)
- Bring your awareness to your heart.
- Breathe from the area of your heart.
- Imagine putting a big smile on your heart or activate a feeling of compassion or care in your heart.
- Radiate this heart feeling throughout your entire body and let it spread to where ever your breath takes it.
- Remember to welcome what ever is arising from here.
This practice helps me to connect back to my heart and begin feeling my life more intimately again even when being overwhelmed with the world of unknown.
To learn more about the healing abilities of the heart go to drsandrabeddor.com/sandra/heartwellness/
I believe that my life is somehow guided by an underlying current. But, right know my belief is being tested and I am being initiated to KNOW this current personally upfront and center…not just believing in it. This is why it feels so BIG right now.
I even pulled a “Osho Zen Card”. What do you think I got?! The “NO-THINGNESS” Card! It reads…
“Being “in the gap” can be disorienting and even scary…
Nothing to hold on to, no sense of direction, not even a hint of what choices and possibilities might lie ahead. But it was just this state of pure potential that existed before the universe was created. All you can do now is to relax into this no-thingness…fall into this silence between the words…watch this gap between the outgoing and incoming breath. And treasure each empty moment of the experience. Something sacred is about to be born”
Don’t you just love when that happens! Something or someone says the right thing at the right time. Well, I’ll take it! A girls got to do what a girls got to do…
Another thing that I find so helpful at times like this…is eating live and easily digestible foods. My favorite is my “appletini” it is a good liver tonic…
- 5-6 medium granny smiths apples
- 1 large salad bag of baby spinach
- Raw ginger to taste ( I use a lot)
- Juice it all up and enjoy out of your favorite glass!
*Book recommendation for another easy 7 minute practice: “ The Promise of Love, Sex, and Intimacy” by Mark Whitwell.